Why me?... I ask.........

Why me?.... I ask....
Falling through the rumbles....
My already clueless life...
And that I am alone......
I lost the hand I thought would hold me till I find my way back?
Or.... you say...it abandoned me....
I am lost....but wasn't I before....?
Why me?.... I ask.....

Been this way....? hahaha... I don't exactly remember.....
But I have been the wall where you come... stone and go...
And I stand..... pretending it was muse...
But mind you... I was always alone....
Till the midnight.... till it dawned...
Till the rays of the sun poked my face for fun....
Mocking me...
Torturing me....
Scrapping my wounds deeper...
Why me?..... I ask......

No, my teeth haven't seen daylight for ages....
My lips don't tear apart and curve for smile....
Yet, I can show you.... I stand up every time you trick me to fall...
Gather my self...all the shattered pieces and move...
Yet... yet again I hope...the hands that I helplessly seek for is yours...
hahahahahah.... Why do false hopes haunt me?
Isn't the pain of the  falls enough?
But... god has to experiment....
And I am......nothing but a sample.....
But...why me?.... I ask......

There are men as much as hairs in my head.....
Some....black...some brown.... and some as good as gray...
But....still the pain... pain I bear is for me alone...
Million heads and billion ears
But my words go unheard....
Speeches fail me....
And... my heart beats against the will...
I live though.... I live for it all
And fall doesn't cease.....
But its me who falls.... and you never can realize the pain of landing...
Why just me?.... I ask......

My ears are open indeed....
I hear you cry.... hear you smile...
But your ears... they just hear you alone...
Your pain...
Your laughter.....
And eyes? My eyes betray me... yours are faithful....
I see you and you see yourself.....
But... why my own decided to cheat me against you?
Why me?.....I ask.....

Love you say?
Ya... it hurts....
I am foolish..... to the dust...
Can't help it....
My heart don't have eyes, ears or brain.....
And it beats yet for them.....
So, I can't be wise.... with brains to judge you and get you right...
Like everyone's do.....
But why can't I..?
Why me?.........I ask.....

I am collecting myself now.....
I will stand and move.....
I remember thousand times... I have given hand to warm hands I loved...
Yet... its just my legs that help me out now...
You are not in the picture...
But yes in memories.....
And they haunt.......they haunt me....
till I break... so you can point at me...."YOU ARE WEAK"
Yes, I am.....
But why me?... I ask....