The war!

My pieces, not one but many
I was scattered every where
Splashes of tears, bullets of words
It was more bloodier than I can share!

The closest arm would cast a blow
And arrows that tongues fired
It was hell than the Devil's own
I was the Child it never sired!

I could hardly cry, or even speak
All of it was so much of shock
My lips, though smirked at times,
At my fate and it wonderful mock!

As my sculptors hammered to break me down
Each blow showed me reality's face
I ran then, to save my soul
Leaving behind their sophisticated grace

Wild was more appealing and real,
With my bareness so acceptable
I could be me as much as I wished
Everything was so natural

I just had dreamt of orchards and trees
All to grow in my wilder woods
But I am now dragged back to war
Without arms or combat boots!

I stare at sky as I head to leave
With packed bag and rolled-up bed
Now, am going back to same war zone
Sometimes living is uglier than the death!

The Curse

I smile, and it burns my next moment
the smokes inject tears in my eyes
I wonder how did it catch fire,
was it the curse or the moment's prize?

The curse they say was born with me
As a friend that lives by my side
It shows me how to dream in the day
And burns me alive by the night

I wonder as I see my life
through rear glass rolling down the years
I had everything you would call a boon
But it was traded with salty tears

I was no orphan and had a house
And smiling pictures on its wall
Showing you a perfect family
Hanging everywhere in my hall

I was fed well and kept tip-topped
For I was a jewel in their eyes
Or, was it all some hallucination
Beliefs milked from murdering lies

But I guess, its all -- the curse
Getting stronger each passing day
Sucking every blood that keeps me alive
Killing my soul as helpless as I lay

I am homeless with roof in my head
And a lonely soul amidst the crowd
Every faces are the ones I know
Just love has fallen in the drought

I have blindfold in my eyes
But I can see the road that I have left
And I scream for some helping hands
But the ears I know have turned strange and deaf

I puff and pant as I burn
the curse in its full fledged strength
Neither it kills me nor leaves me alone
A slow poison works in longer length

The curse is what I wear as my crown
As I stand to testify my crime
The verdict ofcourse is never for me
For my own call me a detestful shame

I look at the curse now so proud,
Happy to do what it does the best
Will it ever leave me alone or hand on to me
if I go for the eternal rest?

It's year of Hope....living my way!!!!!!

I am taking chance, leaping up and fly

Darkening the rainbow, so faint...so shy
Skating to the canvas, painting it all wild
'Coz, I am living through the year of Hope,
It's breathing when it was suppose to die

I am scribbling my dreams and sketching them live
'am fighting in a war, with no weapons by my side
I don't know to swim, yet am taking a dive
'Coz, I am living through the year of Hope,
I am breathing when you punished me to die


I am taking a chance, risking it all,
'am breaking your cage bungee jumping through my shawl
No, you are so wrong am' not risking any fall
Coz, I am living through the year of Hope,
And it thriving when it was suppose to die

Don't be smug, do not wish my return
I am gone, and am having all the fun
Though I may allow you to peep in for a while
Coz, I am living through the year of Hope,
It has now crawled but it was suppose to die


It's no castle in cloud, do not discourage my will
It is something I made outta my crazy dreams
I shall only stop, when time will stay still
See till it turns into what I said
A cozy home and my so warm bed
Out of my sweat, and its not the pain
Something outta love, that keeps me sane

Yes, am running and getting drunk
Breaking free, and taking that prohibited turn
Coz I live where I see the light
I do not care if it's your wrong or you approve it Right
I hold my reins, and fix the way,
I am in with time and loving it sway
It has hurdles but who does care
It is big for you as you are so 'aware'

I joke with issues and problems are my friends
We laugh at the 'other till we reach the end
And move with time, glide and skate
Raft, run or even fly dream's jet
We have HOPE and that's bright
Something good's waiting as we turn left or right
Live my friend as you wish to live
Be that gift, that you want to give

It's all in hope and lust for fun
That makes you work from dusk to dawn
And believe me you will then realise
Happiness comes to seekers not always to wise
Doing something is never burden
When you prove impossible can be done
And realise there are so many ways
To count the hours every passing day

Some count it with minutes hands,
Some with hardships and gains
But some with what you wanna do
Break free or be showpiece in a zoo
Live by looking whats in south
Or by age's anxiousness eating your youth
Or by living it a real way
Taking it by bit and never giving it away

This is how I wanna live
This is how the year shall end
If you are stopping me, you are fool to try
Nothing shall this time make me bend
'coz I have packed my bag and called the cab
Laced my boots and 'm leaving your lab
No, this year I am living my way
It's year of Hope, that never gave it away!!!!!!