It's year of Hope....living my way!!!!!!

I am taking chance, leaping up and fly

Darkening the rainbow, so faint...so shy
Skating to the canvas, painting it all wild
'Coz, I am living through the year of Hope,
It's breathing when it was suppose to die

I am scribbling my dreams and sketching them live
'am fighting in a war, with no weapons by my side
I don't know to swim, yet am taking a dive
'Coz, I am living through the year of Hope,
I am breathing when you punished me to die


I am taking a chance, risking it all,
'am breaking your cage bungee jumping through my shawl
No, you are so wrong am' not risking any fall
Coz, I am living through the year of Hope,
And it thriving when it was suppose to die

Don't be smug, do not wish my return
I am gone, and am having all the fun
Though I may allow you to peep in for a while
Coz, I am living through the year of Hope,
It has now crawled but it was suppose to die


It's no castle in cloud, do not discourage my will
It is something I made outta my crazy dreams
I shall only stop, when time will stay still
See till it turns into what I said
A cozy home and my so warm bed
Out of my sweat, and its not the pain
Something outta love, that keeps me sane

Yes, am running and getting drunk
Breaking free, and taking that prohibited turn
Coz I live where I see the light
I do not care if it's your wrong or you approve it Right
I hold my reins, and fix the way,
I am in with time and loving it sway
It has hurdles but who does care
It is big for you as you are so 'aware'

I joke with issues and problems are my friends
We laugh at the 'other till we reach the end
And move with time, glide and skate
Raft, run or even fly dream's jet
We have HOPE and that's bright
Something good's waiting as we turn left or right
Live my friend as you wish to live
Be that gift, that you want to give

It's all in hope and lust for fun
That makes you work from dusk to dawn
And believe me you will then realise
Happiness comes to seekers not always to wise
Doing something is never burden
When you prove impossible can be done
And realise there are so many ways
To count the hours every passing day

Some count it with minutes hands,
Some with hardships and gains
But some with what you wanna do
Break free or be showpiece in a zoo
Live by looking whats in south
Or by age's anxiousness eating your youth
Or by living it a real way
Taking it by bit and never giving it away

This is how I wanna live
This is how the year shall end
If you are stopping me, you are fool to try
Nothing shall this time make me bend
'coz I have packed my bag and called the cab
Laced my boots and 'm leaving your lab
No, this year I am living my way
It's year of Hope, that never gave it away!!!!!!

Let me find the way

Questions get answered
And yet you get lost
Hippies turn more rational
A life worth living

Voices get lost in throat
Yet there is shrilling scream in your head
You don't know which way to go
And with directions you are lost

You have crowd hanging about
And you are alone
There is nothing charming in malls
And you go for dark cloud with flickering stars

Cold nights appear warmer
Alien beds seem cosy
You detest the thing you call home
And all who claim you yours

You look around
May be a hug will do
Or a greeting smile from strangers
They make your day

But the claims of belongings
The right of suggestions
The known and understood faces
More hostile, more strangers

May be lost within the known crowd
Rebelling against peace and harmony
Ripple against the calm lake
And hail in midsummer day

They make you adult
Losing yourself is yes what it is about
Losing yourself from them to be found out by you
Known and more understood than you do today

If so, let the ripples be created
Let me get lost in the crowd
But this time keep your map with yourself
Let me find the way!!!

Wishing for your cloak

I wish could steal your cloak
Divine and royal as it seems
Does it really make me disappear
For me to go for hiding?

I shall then hang around for a while,
Unknown to any single soul
And catch you before you deny
Whenever you play so fowl!


I shall then hardly ever appear
Because I am set to escape
All that pains and wound I bear
More than I can scream for help


Then I shall run way so far
Moorlands and woods left unexplored
Finding somewhere, someone
Who makes me feel I too am adored

My eyes moisten as I write this words
Wishing for your cloak so divine
Will it help me find an escape route
And tell me its gonna be fine!

Horse who lost the war!

I am a horse black or white
Weak and hurt down the knees
Laying in the dark stable
Waiting for my release

I have hardly seen any sun,
Since the time I was a colt
Other than those peeping rays
Dancing through those crack and hole

You reined me since I was of month
Thinking you could use that cart
But I was meant for wilderness
Now a horse who lost the war

I dreamed of breaking those reins
Growing wings of my own
Whatever colour may they be
But to fly till any wings have flown

I once or twice flapped those wings
Eager to see those green woodlands
And had jumped and flied few times at least
Before you slaughtered them with your hands

I have quit to dream anymore
No more I hope to grow my wings
Realising I am meant to pull those wheels
And to live as a lonely being

You love to drag me all muddy way
I pull your 'tuk-tuk' with all my might
And I have dreamed of running race!!!!
Now you have restricted my sight

Hurt and tired here I lay
Ending another day of slaughted dreams
Hope the rays dance all the same
When tonignt old moon smiles and beams

The surrender!

I screamed all night
Infact, nights to be exact
I called every name I knew....
Frantically whispered to the sky
Yet no hand came to pull me out,
No one to clear away my doubt....
This assured me I will die...
Death not so glorified!!!!

It is no fun to hang on...
on little twig so fragile,
and yet to realise its only thing
That your doomed life depends
Amid of so many logs so strong
just a rotten straw to save your life
And in chilling water as you fight,
 Searching in black hole for some light

You know nothing worked and no one came
It was hard now to hold those muffled cries
They burst with such an agony
Breaking clouds into darting tears
And I remembered how you had swam away
That pulled me down from gut
The urge to save myself started dying out
The voice of giving up getting loud

Then I released throttling the little twig
letting him to breathe in long time
The whirlpool of water swept and swirled me around
As if singing me some lullaby
Soothing the wounds and wrapping me in its arms
Whispering as if promising me heal my pain
I raised my arms and surrendered once for all
To my now true friend- death- realising my final call!!!!

Message to unknown heart-- Just glad that we were lost!!!!

We shall raft in untested, unknown waters,

White and rushing with piercing  current

And roofless nights at the riverside

Just outside our clumsy tent

With rocks and water doing jazz

So perfect is the music of silence

And then I would know you are the one

By the way our both hearts do dance

Oh!!! We shall bunjee jump off that bridge

Staring in eyes, till we feel the jolt

The screams will be silenced by the words of eyes

And you would know love just striked with bolt

Did I mention hikes in lone mountains?

With wilderness to accompany lonely us

Pushing and pulling through those unknown trails

Just happy to be with each other, just happy to be lost

And those long cross country bike rides

Buzzing through green fields and shimmering towns

With screaming of the Harleys, or shall it be one???

Tanned till we turn red and brown

The homeless days with bikes as shelter

Nothing to lose or gain than each other's arms

Then I would sing "Yes this is love baby,"

and you shall accompany me in my dance

The song shall burst from within

The song for just two of us

We shall then return, earning each other

Just happy to be with each other, just glad that we were lost!!!! 

Crazy break-up song!

No emotions touch me
Don't show me your tears
'm as happy as my smile
And as crazy as I appear

I don't need your shoulders
I have my own to rest
and if I need an extra pair...
I will go up to the best

I won't stalk you anymore
Don't wait to hang up my calls
No m not crying for you... not this time
'm treating myself in that mall

Don't wonder what changed me
But credit goes much to you
I have learned to love my self
Than hoping you would ever do

Hang on I do not cry anymore
Not for thing you r concerned
'm phoenix and i came alive
every time you left me alone to burn

But no not this time honey...
I'm getting life that I love
without you to make it any miserable
Shocked??? Go get yourself better job!!

Monsoon love

I sit by the window pane,
As thunder kisses the balletic earth
And think of all the swirling thoughts
As wind waltzes with the playful dust

With Monsoon, cloud comes to meet the grass
She meets his each and every drop
With lush of green, a charming hue
She flourishes so much in his love

As rain platters in the glass
It whispers me your enchanting name
And, then my eyes flood with salty sea,
Broken heart is never the same.

I remember you galloping away that night,
It had rained, as if sky felt my pain
Lightening and thunder were so bold
Like me screaming, feeling all disdain

But today, love is circling lonely me
Yet I feel glum, teary and all the same
Monsoon yet teaches me a thing,
Love can never ever be tamed!!!

I envy them!!!!

Fingers inter-wined,
sending warmth...
engaged eyes
adoring gaze
and flushing cheeks
Yes, I envy them!

Warm hug,
departure kiss
missing you texts
and endless message beeps
longing look
waiting for calls
No, I never had!!

Surprise pecks
and love you notes
Lily at doors
Small things that prove,
How much you adore
Yes, I long for them!

Shoulder to cry
Hands to hold
Treasuring the tears
'Be sad no more'
Smile injected
Burden shared
Yes, I crave for them!

When silence speaks
Words get lost
Yet no need
for Google translator
An anchoring feeling
A thought of being not alone
Unspoken promises for hanging on
I wonder... if am entitled to them?!!!

Mad hag

My boy, there you see

Mad hag who tore the street....

Screaming her lover's name

Cursing with all the pain.....

My boy, there you see,

Mad hag who tore the street!

It is pain does she fear??

Or curses that flies from her own heart...

Or she fears the shame,

That skips her clueless brain???

My boy, there you see,

Mad hag who tore the street!

Shrugging every passing man,

What makes her go insane???

Is it love that is so strong to deal

Wound that hurts more than one can feel?

My boy, there you see,

Mad hag laughing now in glee

She mocks every man who say

For woman's love they eat and pray

Because her Romeo killed himself off

Juliet NOMORE! mad it drove

My boy there you see,

mad hag who maddened for the love

"Whore" he called, and kicked her chest,

She yet loved him more than the rest

Tears dried and brain lost their sense

Rationality at it top essence

My boy there you see

Mad hag who now forbids love's presence

Now, Romeo dead, yet he lives,

Living life what he believes

But the Juliet lost all she knew

Torn apart more than she can sew

My boy there you see,

Mad hag, who once was as pretty as dew

Woman, as they say are unreadable

Unpredictable, not understandable...

Its not because they are labyrinth

They are so deep  that in them you should sink

My boy there you see,

Mad hag, our sanity's only link